I loved heroin for 30 years, I never cared about me or anything else just staying high. As long as I didn’t feel bad I was willing to sacrifice all other feelings, emotions, etc. into my 3rd prison sentence at the age 44, I finally found self worth. Learned to love me, Tony. I had to submit and admit I was powerless. I knew the life I’d been living for so long was meaningless. I’ve been sober for almost 15 months and living a purpose driven life. I’m a frequent church member, I attend NA meetings, I work, I spend time with family. I’ll share my story someday, it’s so scary, ugly, unfortunate, disfunction, chaotic. Until then just know if you are tired of surviving ,and ready to start living, I’ve learned a better way to enjoy life sober and happy find your self worth. Look in the mirror everyday and tell your self your worth it. I don’t care about looks, age, sex, gender, beliefs, none of that matters all that matters is that you’re breathing. “If you’re alive, you’re so special and so important you are one of a kind. The world needs you. You are priceless. I love you.” This is what I told my self everyday I till I believed it. It gets better once I found self worth it humbled me and I found empathy and compassion. So today I love everyone one as I love my self. GOD BLESS YOU ALL,