I am 46 years old and I will have 6 years clean on 4.18.23, I spent over 17 years in prison and 3 years in juvenile DOC due to my choices centered around drugs. After working a program I now know that I abused drugs to help me stay numb and not deal with my feelings of shame, guilt and anger. I was a victim at age 9 to sexual abuse and kidnapping that left me an angry little boy with such mixed emotions towards my family and not being able to process this event in my life caused me to seek acceptance in all the wrong people that were involved in all the wrong things. At age 39 when I was back in jail looking at another prison sentence I was given a chance that had not been offered to me prior. It was the DTAP program which is drug treatment alternative to prison. I started out at CBI Dodge men’s residential where I barely started to open up and started to talk about my childhood trauma, and then after almost 3 months due to my anger and attitude I ended up back in jail for threats towards staff. I was given another chance, and that’s when I took full advantage of the opportunity I had been given and I started to really work on myself and learn who Joe was, I spent a little over 8 months at another treatment called Amity and then I went to sober living, The Paxton House for Men really helped me get adjusted in living life with rules and guidance in a healthy setting. I accomplished so much while at sober living, I went to court for my drivers license and after 23 years I managed to get that reinstated.I then bought a used car and continued to do day labor work and I got to know more about the rooms of narcotics anonymous and what I needed to do in order to stay clean and work through the underlying issues that cause us to continue using. I ended up applying at Recovery In Motion Treatment Center and was hired as Support Staff. After about a year I got promoted and I have been the supervisor here at RIM for over 4 years. I recently bought my first house, and I am waiting to go in front of a judge to have my felonies set aside and all my rights restored. I am a member of NA and I have a sponsor that I work with and I share with others as often as I can some strength and hope because that’s how we stay clean, by giving away what was so freely given to us.